I am a person who sometimes cares too much. I dislike negative situations that happens. Also, I dislike when people do wrong by another person. I see and hear things like this happening all the time and it makes me angry. When you are someone who cares so much, where do you draw the line in how you internalize the information? Humanity is on the decline, and I have seen people put selfishness, power, and/or money before morals. Increasingly, I am moving towards the point of not caring. This may be something some of you have feelings about as well. The problem with this is that if all people lose hope, then what can we expect in the future. How can we continue to show care while protecting our energy?
On a greater level I am over most of the political figures throughout the world. I have lost hope for the state of the world. I belief overall, it’s slowly self destructing. But on the other hand, I know there are countries with great leaders who have not used their hormones and power to lead. These are the people who can lift us up. I find myself tuning out the drama now more than ever. I am trying to just take life day by day and hope on one of these days there will be change for the greater good.
On some level, I am going through exhaustion working with children and their families. I feel as if we are being treated more like temporary babysitters than collaborators in the future success of the child. On the other hand, the children are cute and when they smile at you and give you the eyes, it makes my heart melt. Also, when you eventually see their progress, it is rewarding and makes me love my work all over again.
Now, the system of management as it relates to working in populations with children is another stressor. The expectations set are higher than the support and collaboration provided. I believe the people working directly with the children should have some say as to what generally works best. But often this goes to the wayside. No two children are the same. And, different generations of children require different approaches as they have different interests. The only thing that I do to protect myself is to do my job and go home. I don’t volunteer for anything extra and I don’t put work email apps on my personal phone. My job is Monday through Friday.
I am over most people with a driver’s license. In the last few years, driving has become so stressful. I can’t relax until I make it to my destination. People don’t signal when turning or stopping. They are running lights. They are distracted by phones. People are speeding down residential streets. Some people seem as if they should never have gotten a license. There are so many more things that piss me off on the road. On the other hand, I am happy to have afforded a car to get myself to places in my own time. I try not to allow these people to take away from the pride I had when I began driving. By listening to music that feeds my soul I can relax a little when I drive. I am observant enough to keep myself safe and away from those who drive without a care of others.
In the end, I care, but I can’t allow my care to break me down. I am not in control of others around me. I work to protect my spirit and that requires me to not care from time to time, that’s what I shall do.